Epiphany Finalized

Wow.  Life is so much more interesting to me all of the sudden.  Now that I'm actually doing something instead of spending long hours on Facebook being "bored" and then "stressing out" when I started struggling in classes, things are falling into place.

Now, generally speaking, I am not a very open person.  I don't just "share" things with people.  Not without a very good reason.  But I feel like this is a good lesson to learn, so I'm going to share it.

I hate math.  I always have and I always will.  I don't get it, and I have no desire to ever use it in my future endeavors.  But I have to take it to graduate from college with my associates.  And it is killing me.

So I did what I've been taught to do since I was little.  I prayed for help.  But I had to learn a lesson first.  Believe it or not, God doesn't just hand you a nicely wrapped bundled of solved problems.  You have to do something first.  And it took me almost a month to realize that.

The other night, I was alone for once.  I was stressed out.  Everything seemed to just be caving in on me all at once and I honestly felt like I was drowning in my problems.  I couldn't figure out why God wasn't helping me.  As I sat there by myself, I honestly pondered what the problem was.  And I'm not going to lie, a clear thought penetrated the dark clouds and I realized what I was doing wrong.  In all this time I had been asking for help, I hadn't once done something to help myself.  I was too busy spending time on websites that weren't bad, but weren't helping me to truly do something about my problem.

As soon as I realized that, I set to work.  I made a plan.  I was going to do homework right after I got back from classes, I was going to spend less time on Facebook.  I was going to eat right and exercise, and most importantly, I was going stop wasting my life and actually do something with it.

And although it's only been one day, my life is already so much more fulfilling than it was.

I promise that all of us have something in our lives that can be replaced.  Looking around, my entire lifestyle needed to be changed, and I know it's going to be hard, but I'm not going to waste any more of my life.  Who knows how much of it I have left?

So.  I have completed my New Years Resolution (one I didn't know I had mind you).  And now I ask you, what are you doing to become a better person?